Sadly need to keep one of those as a back up. I use proton as my main, but I’ve gotten a ton of feedback during my current job hunt that my email is going to spam, so I’ve had to send emails using my outlook backup.

I hate this world

I don’t have a public facing website but I was in the process of building one for fun prior to all this.

I completely locked down. Nothing leaves tailscale pretty much. If I do need a public facing site it will be built on other peoples platforms and nothing local.

In my case, building a site would be for fun, not for anything else. AI turning it into a maintenance chore just kills any excitment that used to exist for it. If anything, I’ll probably build it on neocities at this point.

While I agree with most of your statement, I don’t believe that all dreams are meaningless hallucinations. Onierology is the study of dreams and does have moments of consistent results, such as the experiments showing the ability to communicate with the waking world from within dreams and vice versa, and the potential for therapeutic interactions within the dreams as they act as sort of vague subconscious messaging of psychological distress. I’ve actually overcame a lot of mental issues by actively trying to become lucid in dreams to consult dream entities who seem to have knowledge and understanding of things that I either don’t have or have been avoiding without thinking about it.

Its definitely all conjured by the brain, but it isn’t always meaningless and the meaning behind it does vary from person to person. Some people have no dreams at all, some have the same dream over and over and over again (which often is the brain trying to tell them something), and some people have abstract dreams with no real meaning but can sometimes inspire them into artistry where they try to understand the dreams regardless of if they have meaning or not. Its a very curious thing to learn more about because it has such a wide net that blurs subjectivity and objectivity of any kind.

Yeah this is what I mean with my comment. Your brain knows there should be something there and thus it fills in the blanks, maintaining the illusion of it being readable without it needing to be.

Sort of like when you wear glasses with a huge smudge on the edge of them for long enough. You don’t notice the smudge because your brain fills in the gap that it takes up in your peripheral.

You can’t read coherently, but its sort of a visual association where you look at something that should have words and read those words simply by thinking. If you were lucid and do this, then you would be able to tell the words can’t be read, but when you are just on auto-pilot like most dreams then your dream tends to fill in the blanks that maintain the illusion. They became lucid around the time the words became indecipherable, which could be at the same time or just anxiety making the words lose meaning, but either way the pacing checks out.

Matches my experiences with lucid dreaming and the reading I’ve done on lucid dreaming at least.